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Writer's pictureD. S.

The Foster Mom

Many years ago, in the innocence of my youth, there existed a profound and unwavering trust within me, a trust that found its embodiment in the form of my mother. Her presence in my life was a beacon of unwavering support and unconditional love. I remember vividly how she would selflessly go to great lengths to ensure my well-being and happiness.



Mother...
Mother...


My mother's actions spoke volumes about her character and the depth of her love for me. From the simplest gestures of care to the grand sacrifices she made, every act was a testament to her unwavering dedication as a mom. Her nurturing nature and boundless affection created a sense of security and warmth that enveloped me during those formative years.


As I reflect on those moments now, I am filled with a profound sense of gratitude for having such a remarkable figure in my life. The trust I had in my mother was not just a fleeting emotion but a foundation upon which our bond was built. It was a bond forged through countless shared experiences, laughter, tears, and moments of growth.


Looking back, I realize that my mother's unwavering trust in me mirrored the trust I had in her. It was a reciprocal relationship based on mutual respect and admiration. Through her actions and guidance, she instilled in me values that have shaped the person I am today.


My mother's unwavering trust in me mirrored the trust I had in her.
My mother's unwavering trust in me mirrored the trust I had in her.

One day, as I ran into the street to retrieve my ball, unaware of an approaching car, my mother saved me. The screeching tires, the blaring horn, and the split-second decision she made to rush towards me, pulling me out of harm's way, are etched in my memory forever. However, following that incident, she changed, and the vibrant, loving mother I once knew seemed to fade away. I was left behind by my mother, and most of my memories from that time are shrouded in a haze of confusion and pain.


I vividly recall her leaving me at a building's front desk, the cold, impersonal surface contrasting sharply with the warmth of her touch as she let go of my hand and walked away despite my tearful pleas for her to stay. The sense of abandonment that pierced through me that day left me feeling lost, betrayed, and utterly alone. At the tender age of six, I struggled to comprehend why my mother would leave me without a goodbye, without any explanation or reassurance.


Despite the overwhelming emotions that threatened to engulf me, I spent the next five years in an orphanage, yearning for a sense of belonging, for a family to call my own. Each time a couple walked through the doors, my heart would leap with hope, only to plummet with disappointment as they chose another child, leaving me behind once again. I learned to hide my emotions behind a mask of stoicism, keeping my inner turmoil hidden from the prying eyes of the other children who shared my plight.




I spent the next five years in an orphanage, yearning for a sense of belonging, for a family to call my own.
I spent the next five years in an orphanage, yearning for a sense of belonging, for a family to call my own.



The weight of my mother's absence bore down on me, a heavy burden that I carried with me through each passing day. The unanswered questions, the unspoken longing for a love that seemed forever out of reach, fueled my desperate attempts to escape the confines of the orphanage, to break free from the chains of my past and forge a new path forward.

And then, one fateful evening, a woman arrived at the orphanage, her eyes filled with a glimmer of hope and possibility as she looked around, searching for a child to welcome into her heart and home. Little did I know then that this chance encounter would mark the beginning of a new chapter in my life, one filled with uncertainty, challenges, and ultimately, the healing power of love and belonging.


After a brief observation, she chose me, sparking a newfound excitement within me. I eagerly embraced the opportunity to be part of a family and left with her to a large, eerie house. The initial disappointment of the house's appearance was overshadowed by my joy at being selected. The woman had three cats, and as we climbed the stairs, I noticed a room with a grandfather clock, a familiar sight from my childhood. However, she forbade me from exploring and designated a small, dark room shared by four other children as mine. Despite the children's silent and distant behavior towards me, I felt a connection with a boy named Kyle, who was the only one to engage with me.


As I settled into my new surroundings, the mysterious aura of the house began to intrigue me. The creaking floorboards and the flickering shadows cast by the dim lighting added to the eerie atmosphere that enveloped the old mansion. I found myself drawn to the enigmatic history that seemed to seep from the walls, each corner holding untold stories and secrets waiting to be discovered. The presence of the grandfather clock in the room stirred memories of a bygone era, its rhythmic ticking echoing through the silence of the house. I couldn't help but wonder about the lives that had passed through these walls, the joys and sorrows that had left their mark on the ancient timbers. Despite the initial sense of isolation among the other children, I found solace in the connection I shared with Kyle. His warm smile and genuine curiosity bridged the gap between us, creating a bond that transcended the somber atmosphere of our shared room. Together, we embarked on small adventures within the confines of the house, piecing together fragments of its history and unraveling the mysteries that lay hidden in its depths. As days turned into weeks, the house began to reveal its secrets to me, each discovery adding a new layer to the intricate tapestry of its past. The more I delved into its history, the more I felt a sense of belonging within its walls, as if the house itself had chosen me to unravel its enigmas and unearth its long-forgotten tales. In the quiet moments of the night, as the grandfather clock chimed softly in the background, I knew that my journey in this peculiar house was only just beginning. And with Kyle by my side, I was ready to uncover the mysteries that awaited us, forging a bond that would withstand the tests of time and bring light to the shadows that lingered in the corners of our shared sanctuary.



The next morning, as the first rays of sunlight filtered through the curtains, the atmosphere in the house felt heavy with the weight of the rules imposed by the lady who demanded to be addressed as "Mother." Each rule seemed to be etched in stone, emphasizing the strictness of her regime. The prohibition on speaking at the table created an eerie silence that filled the room, adding to the sense of foreboding that hung in the air.


Addressing her only as Mother felt like a surrender of individuality, a subtle way of asserting her dominance and control over every aspect of their lives. The forbidden rooms held secrets that whispered of danger and mystery, tempting curiosity to its breaking point. The warning about never going outside unaccompanied cast a shadow of confinement, making the walls of the house feel like a prison closing in.



The forbidden rooms held secrets that whispered of danger and mystery, tempting curiosity to its breaking point.
The forbidden rooms held secrets that whispered of danger and mystery, tempting curiosity to its breaking point.


Despite the warnings and threats of harsh consequences, my curiosity proved to be a powerful force, leading them to defy Mother's rules and venture outside. The confrontation with Mother, her ominous presence accentuated by the glint of a knife in her hand, sent shivers down my spine, hinting at a darkness lurking beneath her facade of maternal authority.


The moment of witnessing the gruesome scene outside, with Mother wielding a knife, marked a turning point in my perception of the situation. The fear and realization of the danger I was in spurred me to run, only to be intercepted by Mother and Kyle, the unexpected ally turned betrayer. In that moment of betrayal and impending doom, the lesson learned was etched into my very being: "Never trust anyone." The harsh reality of the situation carved a deep sense of mistrust and wariness, leaving a lasting imprint on my psyche as I navigated the treacherous waters of deceit and manipulation.


"Never trust anyone."
"Never trust anyone."

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